You don't seem to want to let go. You are holding on like a security blanket. You never really got into the marriage to begin with. You find it hard to commit to your husband and family even though it seems the ideal place to be, (in a family and a marriage.). You are expecting your husband to live up to your fairytale standards instead of letting him be himself. Look inside yourself to find what you want and not outside. Material things and material thinking will only bring you down.

You create everything around you. Why have you created such misery and loss of life within yourself, when all you have to do is think of joy and happiness to have it?

You have a strong ability to wish things true. People can see this in you, so you would affect them just by being around them. Whatever mood you are in, the people around you tend to pick up on this and assert it to themselves, especially close ones. This is a gift. You are also a very strong healer. Mind that you're careful in how you wish or think things, because it most likely will become true. You have the ability to project your mind, and that gives you also a teaching ability and leadership quality. These gifts need to be developed though. Undeveloped gifts can be dangerous especially in your case where people are so affected by you.

You have certain issues that come from your childhood, (around the ages of 5 years and 9 years old) that you need to confront and deal with. These issues are making you unhappy. They are affecting your marriage and relationship with your husband. They also affect your relationship with friends, possibly of male gender. Do you find it hard to trust people? This again comes from childhood issues that you have buried deep within yourself. You may have a weight problem that also stems from these same issues. (Maybe eating in defence, adding layers of fat to protect you, and making it hard for people to get close to your heart). Only when you deal with the issues in question, then all the unhappiness and misery can be eliminated. If you would like help on how to deal with these issues, please write to me and I will give you some suggestions. You have to be willing to do this all on your own. Nobody can do it for you.

What your guides are mainly trying to say to you is that if you start taking responsibility for yourself and not give all your power away (to your husband), than you can become the person you really are. Don’t expect others to do what you need to do for yourself.

You by nature are a very outgoing, energetic, and giving person. You have the abilities to teach people, (they are more than willing to listen to you.) Because of your mind projection abilities you also have the ability to counsel or hypnotise others easily. You may even find that this would be something that you thoroughly enjoy. You also have strong healing qualities. I think you may already be in a profession of this sort? To enjoy and use all these abilities and to be happy though, you need to work on yourself. First start by taking responsibility for yourself and quit blaming others, because you create everything that is around you. This is the first step. If you look deep and hard you will find that your marriage could be a very happy and strong one if you let it.

You and your husband seem to posses something very strong between you that most other couples don’t have. They may base their marriages upon yours, (again there's that mind projection ability.) Ask your husband what he would like, start communicating with him, and by all means tell him what you would like, (but not telling him what you think he would like to hear.)

If you would like any part of this reading in more depth or have any questions, than you may email me. Thank you. And I hope that this was of some help for you.

Marnie

Why do you think that you need to wait for anyone? When you WAIT for people to come to you or WAIT for love then you are giving all your power away to other people. This only causes unhappiness and distress in your life. It’s time for you to take your power back!

If you look into the relationship that just finished and look at why it finished and the things that you didn’t like about it, then you will find out what you need to work on to make your future relationships work, not only with one person but with all people. Think of that relationship as a learning process.

To answer your question of will he ever come back, the answer is NO. Do you really want him back or are you just afraid to be ALONE?

I think you need to work on accepting yourself, before heading into any other relationships. You will find that by doing the things you like to do that this will please others and they will be more attracted to you.

This may sound very general to you. But this is what you need to work on the most. Besides you don’t even like the other person that you say is interested in you, (not as a lover anyway). Why are you trying to please everyone, but yourself? You seem to have no confidence in yourself when it comes to being happy. Are you so lonely that you have to go out and find LOVE? Stop looking so hard. Now it’s time for YOU to enjoy life and let life happen to you. Go out and do something that you enjoy, get interested in a hobby and get stuck into it. You’ll thrive.

You seem to be a very outgoing and energetic person, but again you let other’s stifle this in you. You are a very intellectual person (that you inherit from your father). You analyse and really think things out before acting. This is a very special gift and you will go forward 100% if you find out a way of balancing it with your intuition. Sometimes you need to follow your gut feeling. Don’t let your analytical thinking make all the decisions for you. Example: You really like a particular person and are very attracted to him, but you analytical mind will tell you that he will not be a good provider and that you will suffer in the long run. Take a few chances. What’s the worst that can happen?

You’ve had an excellent up bringing and you enjoy your family, but you still lack the confidence in yourself that makes you the unique person and woman that you are. You don’t have to please anyone except yourself. Once you please yourself it will please others automatically.

So I think the answer to your question is:

You are waiting for YOU!

Let your life begin, and ENJOY.

Marnie

You may have chosen a karmic path for the moment, but not to worry, It is only for a short time. You have decided to learn a particular lesson that you might not have learned while on the path that you were on.

The question you ask is of a very general nature. I could go on in this general tone or I could give you a more specific reading. I think you are looking for a more detailed reading than the question you originally ask.

You are at an age of awareness, you are seeking answers about LIFE and what it means. I don’t think you are concerned about your love life or sexual experiences for this moment in time. You want answers!

You are a very spiritual person, but need proof of your existence and what it means. Does that make sense? Think about it.

You as a person have dealt with most of your childhood traumas and therefore are ready to start helping others, which you so desperately need. In order for you to help others effectively I would advise that you start to develop your Masculine qualities. I say your masculine side, because that side of you is contributed to confidence, assertiveness and will enable you to actually proceed with a plan.

You are at the end of one path and are about to start another. You tend to be a sort of beacon for others, so now is the time for you to shine and let others find you.

Your abilities are of a wide range. You are very powerful in what you do. Your main gift tends to be of a Psychic nature. You are very psychic, but you are non-trusting of this gift. That is ok.

I totally trust the information I receive from my guides, but it took me a while to develop that bond. I always question the things I don’t understand and I recommend that others do the same.

As I’ve said your main gift is as a Psychic, but at the same time your main downfall is you have NO CONFIDENCE in your gift. It is OK to question things, but when you are not open to new ideas or change, then you become stuck in life and nature. Everything changes, We are born, we grow, we get old and we die.

Some of your other gifts are Healing, Counsellor, and Spiritual Teacher. Which will be indicative in your dreams. Example: Do you often dream of phones or dolphins (indicative of Physic gift); or Powerful Motorbikes, (you may even own one?) or horses (indicative of healing gift); The color purple or authority figures (indicative of Leadership).

If you don’t start using your gifts, (you have your pick) you will become ill (if you aren’t already).

You are a very direct person, I hope you will take this reading constructively. What your guides are trying to tell you is to GET ON WITH IT!

Marnie

It is understandable that you are angry. You have every right to be. Anger can be a very positive emotion, as long as you don’t hang on to it. If you hang on to anger you will only become a resentful and non-trusting individual. Don’t let the anger turn into resentment. Instead learn from it. Yes you can learn from anger. Sometimes we need to hit rock bottom before we start going back up. It’s a lesson that you need to learn. It may help if you try and vision a light at the end of the tunnel.

Your guides are asking that you DON’T hold back your anger, but allow it to flow as you feel it. By allowing your anger to surface you are better able to deal with the problem at hand. Don’t be afraid of it Soon there won’t be so much anger, instead it will become more of an understanding. By burying it you are not dealing with the issues you need to deal with. Than at a later stage the anger will surface again, only in a much broader scope, probably through a serious illness. When we ignore our emotions, (anger is an emotion) we end up with unnecessary illnesses. Sickness usually shows up in our moods and aura, (and dreams) long before it gets to our bodies, giving us plenty of warning.

There is so much for you to find out about all this. What happened between you and your wife is like a whole new doorway opening up for you, (and for your wife). It is forcing you to change. We all have to change. If we don’t then it is done for us through illness or shock, (traumas). It is going to be very hard for you to accept this right now, but in the very near future you will know just why all this happened.

Your guides are suggesting that you go seek support through counselling, (preferably a marriage counsellor). It will give you more knowledge why things work in the way they do.

Now I will give a reading for you about your marriage as coming from YOUR point of view.

You are blaming yourself for your wife straying. You think you are not good enough to satisfy her. This is not true. You will find it very hard to trust her again. Of course this is only natural, but through time and effort the both of you will become close. More close than you have ever been before.

Your wife has a very strong energy. She is able to push all the right buttons with you. She can affect your moods with just one word. This is a sign of a very strong bond.

She says she loves you only a little bit. But now she loves you more.

When we are not accepting and loving of ourselves it is very hard for us to love others. Your wife is going through a personality crisis. She has childhood traumas that she needs to deal with. They will affect the relationship until she deals with them. Unfortunately when she deals with them, you automatically have to deal with them too, because of how close the pair of you are. And you are very close. She is going through her own crisis and it has affected you tremendously. What she is really looking for from you is the support she never received as a child, (most likely her father failed in this category). She finds it hard to let people get close to her heart.

You are a very strong person and can be there for her. (If you abandon her in her time of need, you will suffer too.) You will be able to open up the communication link that was lost long ago. It doesn’t mean that you have to stifle your emotions. By being and reacting on your emotions at the time you have them you are helping her. Sometimes she needs you to be angry. Part of her did what she did just to try and get a response out of you. There are a lot of reasons why she broke the trust between you. It doesn’t mean she doesn’t love you. She loves you very much, enough to force you to change and disrupt both your lives. I don’t think that she is aware of why she did the things she did. You will see this and it will all become clear. It’s not saying that this will be easy for you, far from it. It will be one of the hardest things that you have to do. Your strong will might help you to stick by it. Try thinking of it as a lesson instead of a problem it will help. I say lesson because you will be that much more aware after you get through it.

Your guides are stressing that you please go talk to somebody it will ease the situation. When you help yourself you will automatically be able to help others.

There is a very good book on the subject of relationships that may help you to understand the way women and men think. I think you will find it helpful as well as interesting. It’s called "Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus" by John Gray PhD.

On the subject of Spirituality there is a book called "The Grand Design" by Patrick Francis. You may not be able to get in over there yet, as it’s an Irish Author. If you are interested we can make an arrangement in the post.

Stay with it,

Marnie

Usually our wisdom and change come at around the age of 32, (a human number). We start to look at our lives and ourselves, but with you something more of a shock happened to make you look at these things. Sometimes when we come close to death or encounter danger it instils a profound awareness of the life force. There is something of this nature that has happened to you. A New World is emerging. Take advantage of it. Go for it. Everything is there ready for the picking.

You don’t need to feel guilty about taking what you want. If you feel a desire to buy something for yourself do it and use it. By feeling guilty you limit your success. Project your mind, see yourself in a particular position and it will happen. You are limiting your own values and future. That is what is holding you back.

Nobody else put you where you are. "YOU ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS TO YOU IN YOUR LIFE." Try not to think of this statement as unfair, but instead think of the limitless possibilities that you can do for yourself in your life from now on. Use it to your advantage. With this new dawning in your life you are more in control of what the future holds for you.

In business there is a dangerous situation coming (if not already). But if you hold true to your values and principles you will glide through it. Don’t struggle any more than you need to. If you are to ambitious and take on more than you can handle you will only create more difficulties. The danger will pass of it’s own accord, if you let it.

Your relationships are somewhat stifled. You are almost afraid to get into a relationship and when you do, you suffer tremendous guilt about your sexuality. Partners are confused about this and put the blame on themselves. This makes the situation worse. You never open up to your partner or let them get close to you. By doing this you are not allowing your sexual expression to develop, (or your partners) or your emotions.

I would suggest that you look back at your childhood from around the age of 7. You’ve adopted a negative way of thinking from your mother regarding sex. Sex is the most creative element in all species. What is more creative than making a baby? By changing your thinking pattern regarding this issue you will soon shed the cover you’ve put over yourself and be able to enjoy a healthy and happy sexual relationship.

Enjoy your new wisdom,

Marnie

If there is some sort of conflict going on where you currently are then by moving away from it will only make the situation worse. You will not learn anything by running away from your encounters (weather they are good or bad). You miss out on their them.

You find it hard to settle into any place for too long. Now is the time to stay put. It doesn’t mean you have to lead a boring life. By chopping and changing all the time you loose out on all sorts of opportunities that you might have enjoyed if you stayed put.

Give yourself a chance to enjoy the opportunities that life has to offer for a change instead of packing up and moving away for a new adventure. You will never get a chance to know who you are if you’re always running away from yourself.

If you want to move to be closer to a boyfriend, then it is time to give up the chase.

Marnie

The guides are stressing a move for you. It could be a move that is work related or house related. All in all your financial future looks secure for you. You will have job satisfaction.

Your guides are now stressing a boy of about the age of 13. I can’t make out weather he is a relation or not. They are saying he is going through a tough time. You are to be easy with him, as he is changing, (puberty) and how you treat him is very important. He needs your guidance and support. Try not to be too hard on him. There is a concern revolving around him that could become life threatening if not dealt with soon. They (guides) stress this be your primary concern for now.

Marnie